It's my mom's birthday this weekend. She died two years ago. After she died I made a playlist of tunes that felt pertinent to how I was feeling about things. There's some cheezy stuff in there like "You Gotta Be" by Des'ree and Five For Fighting's "100 Years". And I couldn't leave out a few of my mom's faves by Journey.
For the most part though, it's a lot of indie rock tunes. Funny story, R.E.M.'s "It's The End of the World As We Know It (And I Feel Fine)" popped into my head while visiting the hospital one day. I had just turned 21 and my mother was dying- talk about life altering! And a couple months ago I was listening to "The '59 Sound" by The Gaslight Anthem. My mom was bon in 1959 and I tried to play as many of her favorite songs one last time before she passed. Currently, I'm hung up on "Eulogy" by The Flatliners.
Death is totally a devastating experience- hell, any type of loss is. Life changes unexpectedly and all the hopes and dreams and expectations for that future are gone. But what's great about life is that it keeps going. Take time, feel what needs to be felt, regroup and move forward. I found out my mom was dying and in 6 weeks she was gone. Two years later and I'm still dealing with it. For the rest of my life I'll be "dealing" with it. But that's what life is about- learning how to deal.
Here's this weekend's playlist...
It's The End Of The World As We Know It (And I Feel Fine)
R.E.M
Under The Bridge
Red Hot Chili Peppers
Swing Life Away
Rise Against
Losing You
The Dog & Everything
I Will Follow You Into The Dark
Death Cab For Cutie
You Can't Put Your Arms Round A Memory
Johnny Thunders
The '59 Sound
The Gaslight Anthem
Eulogy
The Flatliners
Peace out kids! Don't forget to live a little!
